What a late late late night! Im so sleepy, but it was soooooo worth it, thanks for the ear candy, and thanks for listening!!

FINALLY

ahhhhhhh those things you whisper in my ear when you are so close, the way you throw me up against the wall and kiss me like you dont want to be anywhere else, the way you smell the way you taste, its been a long time since I've been in a whirlwind that keeps me grinning like a school girl.

so after posting a quickie after over a year -- i re-read what i had already posted from way back then.....woweeeee -- same old shit going on with several more twists.....nothing has changed with the other half -- if anything its gotten worse. we certainly have grown apart -- she is all i think about all of the time....but i cant get us back. its official. its not gonna happen -- so i find myself trying to do the right things at home and be a responsible partner -- but that spark -- ahhhh that spark that would make me dizzy and confused and excited -- yep that mother fucker went out. black as night now........anyway just thought i would post an update since the gap. but yes this new little excitement in my life is just what i need to be me -- haha let me be cliche and say I NEED TO FIND ME AGAIN -- haha any fucking way -- im a little excited about my new adventure. sad about the direction of my true love though..........

today is interesting......although stressed completely the fuck out at home, more than I ever imagined possible -- what do I get -- I get the text. The one I'd been hoping and waiting for, the one that made me quiver, giggle, and smile for the first time in a very long time!